sPoT oF mY hEaRt

2008年9月14日星期日
So I guess I will share this again..
God have answered all my prayers for this year..
Well, almost all...

is getting there.. and God is good!!!

I been praying for have more faith in Him and want to do something crazy for Him.
So I pray for get to know all the christian club leaders in my school, and I really want to united them together cry out for my school.
Then I pray for becoming a prophet... want to see more visions, dream more crazy dreams..
Third, I want to disciple someone, although I didn't know too much yet, but I just want to give it all... I don't want to forget any detail of what I have learned. And the best way to remember it is by teaching it to others. 
After these just some other personal wishes, such as family's income problems, move back to the place where near church, and stuff like that..

Anyhow, during 2008 this summer, all my prayers have been answered.
God is faithful... when you ask Him for something faithfully, He will give it to you right on time.
During the Jesus Culture conference, which I will post later for the detail (been too lazy >.<)
God gave me the prophetic gifts. And I have my very first picture while I was praying for someone... and I received the gift right away!

After that, my Lord just send a spiritual brother to me.. haha..
I didn't get to know him for too long.. and then he asked me to be his sister..
which I am super willing too.. 
so guess what?
I started discipline him with all I learned.. which is lots of fun..
because some of the things I have learned.. I don't really remember till I started talking to him about God.. which is crazy .. God will remind me about the things I have encountered or learned just to teach him.

Then, before my school start... I was thinking maybe I will need to knock on every christian clubs' door and share about my vision and dreams, and people might feel that I am some kind of freak..
But God is way too good, He just prepared everything for me..
I don't even need to plan anything... 
Things just happened and people just come to me
isn't that crazy?

Three days before my school start, a girl I have met during Jaeson Ma's conference "supernatural on campus" called me for a meeting.
She is from Cal State Long Beach too..
and she said somehow she just feel want to call me and invited me if I want to go to this STUDENT LEADERS (from different christian club) and STAFF..
and.... she been PRAYING for me because God wants her too...
guys.. do you know how CRAZY that is?!
she only know a little information about me... and she pray for me

so without trying... I got all I want and need..
I attend the meeting at the day I moved in.. long story to tell..
but really great experience..
I get to say the prophetic words to this guy... and he got touched which is really cool 
and some other guy predicted over me.. and it was very encouraged...

God just training me for this gift .. alot.. = =
I get to see lots of things.. before they happened..
which is very crazy to me.. sometimes I just can't believe these happened to me
too good to be true..
now it become a lifestyle to me already
yay!! God is good..

Lets talk about yesterday..
we have fun yesterday..
Steph, May, Steven, and I..
we went to this school events..
before that.. during the noon.. Steph went with me to this prayer meeting..
which was really great.. we prayed for each other and encouraged each others.
And Stephanie just done the really great job on prophetic words too..
with pictures and words.. just crazy..
so we get to met more people and hang out with them

at night we just have lots of fun.. free food, games, and free goods..
after the event, we decided to go back to our room and play cards and some game.
we have great time.. and fun

today.. just way better..
because when God plan something just for you .. you will just going crazy by how great He is..
I was planing to go to this meeting with the girl I mention earlier.. Tammy..
So, without thinking too much I decided to go ...
which I kinda regard after May, Stephanie, Steven, and my roommate have left.
I started felt like.. why am I still here?
why don't I just go back?
all these thoughts just came in my mind..
till I started doing my homework..

Then.. I just went to the meeting without expected too much.. 
so here I am in the pizza, pray, plan event..
while I was talking to this new girl I met and eating my pizza..
I saw.. Jaeson Ma walk into the house..
I was shocked..
and crazy happy!
because I didn't expected that... 
and... the meeting.. was great... 
without he speaking too much God show up..
this meeting turns out is from Jaeson's campus church meeting
and I was there without knowing it..
which is crazy .. and great.
people kept telling me I am place in the right spot and right time
from different events and prayers..
very encouraged..

and God give me the worship heart once again.
for a while I haven't worship this freely.
we worship with only a guitar.. and all these true hearts worshipping the Lord..
just sounds so beautiful and simple..
students crying out, praying, singing, all these sounds so untied together..
like they are mean to be in a song..
I just fall in love with God's power and presence..

I have always want to meet or be with some powerful group who is burning for God and willing to run for Him.
God answered my prayer right on time
I have always dream about meet someone like Eddie Brown as John has met..
like Sarah met lots of great leaders.
and now God just prepared for me
Jaeson's group.
can't described how great God is..

and..
yea


Just so good
I get to pray for two tiffanies
and one of them cry... because the words God wants me to say
and just great

who am I ?
I am no one..
but with God..
I am a big deal..

in His eyes

Lord I love You so much



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posted by *+ tIfFa <3 ChRiSt +* at 上午12:51 | 2 comments
2008年9月9日星期二
Speechless.. Its nice to facing all these difficulties with all my greatest sisters and brothers.. Yes I am tired, yes I am hopeless, yes I have peace. There are more than one thing I want to share.. but now I just want to share about today.. So many things happened this summer and these days.. all these gifts and encounter I have experienced.. all these tears and joy I have felt.. Praise You my Lord .. for You still love me and I love you back.. Praise You my Lord .. for I have to face money problem and only depend on You.. Praise You my Lord .. problems are can no longer block me to love You more. Sometimes I asked lots of why.. God why does Sarah and Alice and Amy have to leave? God why my money is not here yet? God why am I so foolish that I can lost my 15 dollars today when I don't have too much money already? After all, there are one reason... God wants me to love Him only and not worry about others. I found peace although I lost my money..(not in the beginning ... of course) but after the sadness.. I just felt that.. God said its okay.. there are much more blessing waiting for me when I stop worshipping money and the world.. tears fall down from my face, because I am so stress out.. yes is only the first week of school yes I still don't have any text book yet yes I still waiting for that one answer yes I am ready to do something I never done before in school yes I am who God says I am my head hurts.. my tears runs.. my music plays.. my mind thinks.. my hand types.. all for one reason.. God still loves me.. Thats why I am here... Thats why you can read my words. Take my world away God. I don't care anymore I am so lost but I know You are with me I am so hopeless but You are my hope I am so sad but You are my joy as long as You are with me as long as You care about me as long as You still loves me More God More BREAK me into pieces.. kill me before use me yes God because there is no better way than Yours because there is no meaning to live without You I don't care how others say about me anymore because I only got one life to live. and that is Yours I might cry in the middle of night I might hurt while You break me I might want to give up I might going to the place I never been before I might be scare but If is all for You take me even if that cost my life All I can do is .. trust You all the way no turning back no more time for wasting no other way trust You wholeheartedly if I perish, then I perish if I die, then I die because I know where I am going.

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posted by *+ tIfFa <3 ChRiSt +* at 上午12:45 | 3 comments