Man, I knew I knew that I haven't updated my blog for such a long time..
but.. I am so happy right now..
because I found my dear God's plan for me in Bakersfield.
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I was boring as I moved back to Bakersfield.
I was WASTING my time.. seriously.. I felt that I am a useless person or something..
all I do for past few days was sleeping late, watched TV or drama online, eat.. ect.
(that's why I gain some weight too... **crying... )
and I just feel so weak and no motivation to do anything
it was weird ... maybe just too tired from the past few semesters...
(awwww... excuses)
and how.. I woke up early today, with my mother's lovely yelling..
she was yelling at my brother because he came back home around almost 12 last night..
and "maybe" his friend throw some toilet papers on our garden...
(according to my step-dad, he said these are done by high school graduates.)
since my bro just went to graduation party last night.. he must knew some graduates,
so then.. my mother and step-father was piss because of it..
but.. these all are not the point.. before I woke up.. I was having a dream of my family
and I felt as God's vision..
I kinda woke up between 8A.M., I didn't know why I just started praying for the family in Taiwan; especially for one of my cousin whose in England now and didn't want to believing in God, and other one is my mother's oldest aunt whose suffer with her life. (very empty and etc.)
anyway, I was just praying some simple prayers like God touch them and use them....etc.
as my sleep goes along, I started having a dream about that I went back to Taiwan.
and all my family gathering together for a high class party.
so we were eating and sharing..
as time goes by, I had a desire of sharing God but I was warning by some family members that I better not talking about God.
I felt so stressful although I was dreaming.. so I just shared God's blessing without mention His name, and I tried to encouraged my family with His love.
all of sudden, my oldest aunt she fells down on the ground and started weeping and speaking God's words to me. She shout to me that God is going to answer my prayers due to my faith.
and He heard every words that I prayed and asked.
I was shouting hallelujah and crying so hard.
then I saw myself walked to my cousin and started share God's words (which was something like her past is all wiped away by God's love, and she will never be the same...ect) ,and she started weeping and repenting. I was so touching..
at the same time I heard my mom's lovely voice..
haha..
anyhow.. that started my bad day.. I tried to talking to my brother with love and told him what is right and what is wrong about his behaviors.
and he was giving me a hard time and all these attitudes towards me..
although I didn't get mad, but inside of me felt don't want to talk anymore..
and I allowed my weakness, stop doing what I kept doing after onething conference.
and.. I felt all I have done is wasting because of my weakness.
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
so I felt very useless and unhappy about myself..very very disappointed.
so I was having a bad day with a great dream.
at night. my mother came back and I went to shopping with her..
have great time... and went to eat.
somehow I wanted to eat at the place, didn't know why...
then after tonight I found the reason why God putted me here..
I got to shared with the owner of the restaurant.. (a pho restaurant own by a family from HK)
and mom shared that the owner's twin daughters are Christian already but not so deep,
and then they are the only family members who believes in God.
so somehow God gave my mom and I a chance to shared with all of them.
I was sharing my family story and how I got touch by God.
before that I was sharing the revive in Florida, and how powerful God is..
they were so surprised by what God has done.. and they didn't know that God can do some much crazy things...
and as I shared more, I can felt God's with me.
my mom said something very cool... she said that we are doing a church right there ..
and its so true.. because Bible said that two, three people gathering, He will show up..
so cool, I can't described how great I felt..
and their mother just so happy and willing to believe God after my mom and my stories..
so cool
God You are GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I knew You always have plan for me no matter where You put me at..
Thank You Thank You Jesus..
標籤： experience, Father's love, sharing
